The maddening thought

Envy the hold you have on me.
Perplexed, why I don't own you the same.
Beyond the merry.
Beyond the smiles.
Beyond the show of a perfect life, I worry.
Will he choose another, is not what will slit and ache.
Will she have that enviable hold on him? What if she does


I'm afraid she does.
And that stings.