Chaos

My soul, what unrest it shelters.

Sinking deeper into a chaotic mess

Of memories

Words and

Stabs

I roll over, like

Turning a page of a scary chapter

But I’m back where I first began reading.

It’s happening over and over again.

It’s swallowing me deeper and deeper

into its core.

Its grip getting tighter and tighter

as time passes by.

And I fade slowly but surely into the unknown.

You won’t understand

because you can’t see it with your eyes.

You won’t understand

because it knows you don’t have the strength to endure.

You’re just happy looking through

The chaos

The pain

The struggle

You’re just happy looking through

Me.

Aren’t you?